Yield for Tractor
Depth Perception VI
Another prayer for clarity
That we might all come to see
Our present death
As fertile ground
Instead
And though this trope wears thin
There will be nothing cliche
About who you are
When you arise
From your own grave
Today
Origin Story
Ella’s Point
This was pure imagination, but not all my own. My wife and I had been tasked to give some art instruction to a friend’s daughter as part of an independent study art class she was in at her local high school. You have to know one thing- I am not a very good teacher.
I had to wrack my brain to come up with teacherly things to have her work on, one of which was to come up with a painting with a clearly defined foreground, midground, and background. I’ve heard other artists talk about this and thought it sounded pretty legit. So she comes in with a simple sketch of a grassy foreground meadow with a dirt path and post-and-rail fence, a midground of a sloping headland, and a background of another distant sloping headland.
All I could think was how these points would be firing on the right swell. Long lefts forever! So being the not-so-great teacher that I was, I got all excited and had her watch while I painted and talked my way through my own version of her concept. I guess I straight up stole it? Depends on how you look at it I suppose. I could have been a good teacher and had her paint alongside me, but I kinda just wanted to paint the thing myself.
I hope she wasn’t bored off her mind, a solid hour of her and my wife sitting there chatting about the painting and asking questions while I painted and sorted out various academic solutions to achieving “atmospheric perspective” and such art teachery sounding things. Like a bad Bob Ross episode, only longer without the edits. But as with much of my art, I was mostly just daydreaming about the waves I wanted to see lining up down these points.
We finished up, I was stoked, everyone was relieved it was over, and the next week she came back to paint her own version. I really can’t say if watching me had helped her much or not.
Art is funny like that. I’ve mostly noticed artists just do what they do, how they do it, and while it’s interesting to see how others approach similar subjects, none of us really care all that much once we have a brush in our hand.
Bamboozled
Afternoon Commitments
When we’re young and in love, we can ignore all the demands of the world in favor of one afternoon alone with our loved one, while the entire world becomes small enough to rest in the shade of a single beach umbrella.
If you know my art, you know I’m usually drawn to higher ground with sweeping views of an entire coastline, often stretching for miles into eternity, or the horizon, whichever comes first.
So a quiet, intimate, beach level moment where love unfolds in a single cove of sand nestled between the sculpted forms of sandstone cliffs and calm and playful sea, well, it’s a bit different for me.
It’s a fairly simple painting, and it was the simplicity itself that was the challenge.
But for my friend who proposed to his wife here at this spot, this isn’t just a simple scene. For him, in that moment, the whole world came to rest under the shade of that umbrella.
Hitting the High Notes
Dust and Ashes
The poppies and buckwheat bloom
Little fires that have jumped the hearth
Right out from the sun itself
Scattering our world alight
Illuminating our path
And the dust we kick up
Reminds us where we come from
As it settles on our skin
A mourning dew
Of leftover ash
Reminding us of where we’ll go
Only in the presence of fire
Do we truly see one another
Depth Perception #5
There is something primordial about staring into the blackness of the deep. A sense of heightened awareness is stirred because, well, mostly because monsters. So we feel safer in shallow waters where we can see with all certainty that no such monsters lurk. And yet if the ocean is really moving its the shallows with thier unmoving rocks that become dangerous and the safety of deep water is what we strive for. In either case, clear water is helpful.
So it also is in the ocean of our minds. There’s times we need to go deep, and times to rest in the shallows. It depends on the turbulence we face. And just like the ocean, a little clarity is always helpful.
This series is a prayer for clarity for us all.
I think.
It gets murky sometimes.
Depth Perception #4
Our bodies are made of rocks, sand, and clay. Veins of metal pulse beneath. Mining operations are blood transfusions that keep the gods on life support. Our spirits disturbed, distant storms, fueled by the heat of life-giving fire, translates the language that created the first world into the depths of our subconsciousness, reverberating in pulses of groundswell that interact with these earthen bodies and take on surprising forms, a rhythm of highs and lows, at turns chaos, at turns sublimely beautiful.
And when the storm is distant? And when the local rainfall subsides, and our bodies are no longer awash with spiritual grief of the present moment? When those creeks slow to a trickle and run clear to the sea? And when those subconscious depths relax for a season, and the murky sediments drop to the seabed and find rest?
That is when we know clarity. That is when we can stand centered in our bodies, and look through our spirit, and into the depth of our subconscious life, and see the strange and beautiful creatures that swim the depths there.
When conditions align just so, and a distant storm unseen sends its forerunners into the crystal clear coves and bays, we can see the dance in whole new ways. We can see the stars in the bright blue sky, and we can see reefs beneath the waves, and we can see the groundswells approach with a clarity unmatched.
That is when we stand there in the shallows, observing the interplay of life upon our bodies, hypnotized by the beauty within us, and next thing you know, we’re smashed into the rocks, gulping for air, our swim trunks blown right off in the explosion and we wash ashore awkwardly, sometimes bleeding, naked, and laughing.
Life is beautiful. Carry on.
Depth Perception #3
Depth Perception #2
Depth Perception #1
Twentytwenty II
Back in 2020 I painted a dark stormy shorepound painting as a response to the mayhem we were all living through. It struck a chord with many, I think because in spite of the darkness there was a certain beauty in it as well. A few years later, when a collector asked for a similar rendition, it didn’t turn out quite so dark. If I were asked for one now, I’m not sure what would happen.
We live in different times today. Even the beaches that inspired these paintings have changed. What was once a short berm to hop down from the dunes to the beach sand below has become a 15 foot vertical precipice of sand for what feels like miles in either direction. We entered at a low spot and walked south for a good stretch on the low tide.
My wife and I watched our two youngest make sport on a dare of scrambling up the vertical wall and throwing themselves off the ledge over and over. Weightless they flew, occasionally even flapping their arms in delightful giddiness as they fell like stones into the soft sand below, occasionally toppling awkwardly feet over head and again when gravity’s momentum got the better of their balance.
I pray their experience of this world that is becoming far more difficult for many among us, will still be something they can always find beauty in. And one thing I am certain of- their joy wasn’t just in the playful act of cliff diving into soft sand, it was in the act of doing so with each other. Laughing at each other. Pushing each other onward. Surprising each other with entirely new ways to look goofy when falling in midair.
I’ve never been more convinced that the greatest joy we can find in this life is just to be with the ones who are with us.
Gravitational Truce
Over 4 miles of hiking with a large canvas and all my gear, risking the tide, trusting these unstable cliffs to hold a few more hours towering over my head. A game of Russian Roulette with sedimentary geology, all in the name of beauty and solitude. I found it here that day, and some might even call it peaceful. I considered it more of Gravitational Truce.
Nobody Home
Nobody home
Just kidding
Everybody is home
We all live here
Our feet in the sand
Reminds us of what we’re made of
Mostly anyway
Mostly made of earth
But some of us are also made of fish tacos
And if I tell the truth here
I must say I’ve spent more time
Eating fish tacos at the Brigantine
(a nearby PCH corner establishment)
Than I have on this beach
I’m also not too proud
To shamelessly boast
That a few large canvas prints of mine
(different images, not this one)
Grace the walls
As you walk into the restaurant
And I think that is really rather something
Considering all of the amazing artists
Who live here
And paint these shores
In their own amazing ways
(and many of whom I have shared
many a happy hour with
consuming said fish tacos
and pints of beer
at that very same establishment)
But I ramble
The point I was trying to make
Is that even when I am painting
A piece of coast
With an empty lifeguard tower
And the mother of all stairways
While the tide nearly washes
My easel to sea
And the good fellow
Who commissioned this painting
Is standing by
With a frisbee
and a cooler bag
Full of cold beers
And the sand between my toes
Reminds me once again
Of who I am
And what a joy it is
To live here with all of you
(yes, you)
Well…
Wait, what was the point of this?
I forget…
Nobody home
Let’s meet for tacos
Soon
The Coast Road
It’s not always intentional
When humanity is erased
When strip malls and donut shops
Are leveled in the blink of an eye
When paved roads are pulverized
Back to rutted earth
Without a second thought
I don’t mean to do this
In my haste
I get sloppy
And the brush doesn’t seem to care
One bit how I or anyone else feels about it
Scrussh schrushh schrurush it goes
Across the canvas
The quiet sound
Of a time machine
Setting the landscape back
At least a hundred years
Kansas City Star
This was a lot of fun to paint, and waaaay out of my comfort zone. If you know my work, you know what I mean. I’m a lot more comfortable painting rocks and trees inaccurately than I am doing the same injustices to the human form, but there they were, pouring themselves into their music for us only a few feet away. What could I do? I did my best. And this is where it landed.
It’s especially meaningful to me as I’ve painted at live events while dozens, possibly hundreds of musicians have played nearby, but never a group of musicians I’ve known as long as these guys. Usually I just paint whatever I feel like, flowing water, waves, etc, but today I felt like painting these guys while they did their thing. Our friendships go back over 25 years, long before, they played music together, before they formed Huckleberry Flint and proceeded to sell out shows. Long before two of them got the wild idea to figure out how to make chocolate from scratch and winning awards and selling chocolate all over the world as Dick Taylor Craft Chocolates. They even hired my oldest daughter and now she always smells like chocolate, and if we shake her hard enough, little bits of chocolate fall out of the hems in her shirt, and we laugh and make cookies. So yeah, this wasn’t just a painting of a band, this painting is a snapshot in time of friendships that have been forged over a lifetime.
The President
Two things happened recently.
First, I spent a week exploring and painting along one of mainland California’s most remote and mysterious coastlines. Missile launch silos. American flags. Chain of command and all that. But this painting isn’t about that trip at all except for one detail. One morning on the beach, miles from the nearest pavement of any sort, I came across some paw prints on the beach. I’d heard of mountain lions on this coast, and somehow I always pictured those cats, well, up in the mountains. The thought of one of these majestic beasts with sand stuck between its toes got my imagination working.
Second, I was asked to come paint live at a fundraiser for a friend who’s running for elected office here in Humboldt. He’s commissioned artwork from me in the past and I ate an unwholesome amount of snacks at his Superbowl party one year without even watching the game. I have no way to know whether he’s the perfect fit for the job he’s seeking, but I do know that over the years he’s been a supporter of artists like myself, so while that means I am certainly biased, it also means he’s been a meaningful part of this community’s culture long before seeking public office.
I’m not a fan of political gamery at any level and try to steer clear at all costs. But then again, I’ve never had a collector or personal friend ask me to come and paint at their political fund-raiser before, so I didn’t give it much thought and next thing you know I have to figure out what to paint at a fancy politics party.
How do I get myself into these situations?
And then I remembered the mountain lion that prowled through my thoughts on that beach a few weeks earlier. It just felt right. Those cats are apex critters if there ever were, and truthfully politics is a game of apex aspirations. But what good is apex power without honest self-reflection? It’s no good at all, that’s what. Disastrous even. So our mountain lion stands over a tidepool, its silhouette reflecting in the clear waters below, revealing a vibrant ecosystem beneath the surface.
I know that sounds a little corny, but that’s what I thought about while painting this one.
And my hope for my friend and everyone else that seeks public office, is just what this painting portrays. That it’s not about just how to win and score points and use the power you seek to shape the world as you want it, but to also honestly reflect on your role in your community, our community. I can only hope that those who seek power will also take the time to look within and find the clarity to see all of us staring back in your reflection.
Recent Fractures
Standing on the edge
Where everything brittle must eventually break
Where every painting is a tempting of fate
I do think about these things
But not deeply, and not with too much weight
Because I try to tread lightly on the edge of fate
But recent fractures
Can’t be ignored nor can I the consequences understate
Should I be a fool with the my easel and miscalculate
And become a statistic for the local papers to state
All for the homage to beauty that I’d hoped to create
If the ground would only have held for one more day
So with caution I step, and I work, and I pray
Because more than anything I would surely hate
To subjugate
My wife and my kids
To suffer from my foolishly befallen fate
Who Are You?
Let’s meet for tacos. I drag an art pal along and we meet up with a friend who wants me to paint a particular spot nearby. The tacos are delicious but they are actually giant burgers and these beers are absolutely perfect. Another pal shows up and another round ensues. We leave the funny tacos and head out to paint this spot for my friend. We drive a convoluted route through a college campus to a packed parking lot and wander off past the college kids all over the sandstone bluffs in search of this view. Once we find it, we scratch an X and we return to the lot and offload my paint pack with our latecomer taco pal and drive all the way back around to the non-college campus lot and traverse across these same sandstone bluffs back to our X marks the spot by a different route and wonder where our latecomer taco pal with the pack is at. He’s got my whole studio in that thing. All I can do is whistle in the breeze and enjoy the view. Phone calls are made. I’m confused, but that is typical. Decisive planning on road trips is just not my thing. Did I mention my friend and his pal are lawyers? Not that that matters much, but I don’t generally question lawyers. Especially lawyers with bags full of ice cold beers. This is gonna work out fine. Finally the gear arrives and I set to work on this painting over the banter of surf tales going back generations and harmonica tunes going back even further. These guys are good at this shooting-the-breeze game and it quickly becomes apparent that they’ve both seen some wild things here. Not all of it friendly. But some of it magically beautiful too. The sun sets and we wander back to the cars and set off in search of tacos and beers. We head over to a bar and grill near a busy pier, where parking does not exist at this hour except for lawyers who’ve seen some things and know that they can park in the customer only surf shop lot after hours right behind the restaurant row and walk straight into the bar like they own the place and since I don’t question lawyers in bars I follow right behind as we walk through dishwasher steam clouds and down a narrow hallway dodging piles of dirty dishes with long legs when a sweaty faced kid appears from a doorway and stops in his tracks before being steamrolled by three musketeers marching through his kitchen uninvited and says as we pass by,
“Who ARE you guys?”
And I don’t even know. And I’m not gonna start asking questions now. And again the tacos were delicious but they were actually pizzas and the beers were once again absolutely perfect.
Higher Learning
If I had learned a little more
I’d have known what not to do
I’d have stood my ground
And refused to paint
The whole entire view
But here we are after the fact
Showing every reef and where they lie
Splayed out across this canvas
From a vantage point
Halfway up the sky
A smarter arter would have simply
Painted only one piece of this coast
But thankfully
I missed that class
And I’m not as smart as most
Silver and Gold
Silver and gold I may not have
But what I have I give to you
I’ve got the golden sun
On a morning bright enough to
Cast out shadows
From the depths of hell
I’ve got the silver sea
On a morning calm enough to
Cast a sweet spell
Up to the heights of heaven
Take ’em
They’re yours
Not Exactly No
I’m pretty sure there are
more than a few of you
Who consider me a lazy man
A work ethic gone soft
Beach days in the sun
Idle hands
Idle mind
Idolatry to the almighty dollar
Guilty as charged
Stone me
But with sweat dripping
Down my face
I stand in the sparkling sun
And craft these artifacts
For no other useful purpose
Than to spark a few sweet memories
For the few softer hearts among you
Who refuse to throw stones
Not exactly the hardest work
But it’s not exactly no work at all
It’s always been my honor
To work for you
Into the Sunset
Will this be your first?
That was my stupid question for them
I’m not very good at this
They were really quite beautiful together
A perfect young couple
Watching another southern California sunset
From the edge of crumbling cliff
Over the mirror of the sea
Clearly expecting
A green flash
I’d just finished painting the scene
And drinking 3 beers
That’s not exactly the usual
During the course of a painting
But friends had joined me today
And it sometimes goes that way
Words of wisdom
Spoken by an old friend:
“Nothing is better than a two beer buzz”
Truth
It doesn’t get better
Only more difficult
To ask the right questions
This child would not be their first
Or their second
Or third
I don’t remember now
But it was maybe their ninth
Or thirteenth
A number enough to make you wonder
If they were much, much older than they looked
So I asked if it was true
That it got easier after the third child
They said absolutely
3 is the hardest
After that it gets easier and easier
As they start to raise each other
That’s how they could leave the other 8 or maybe 12 behind
And relax into the sunset here tonight
The team was on top of it at home
Building themselves some dang quesadillas
I’d only had three kids
The most challenging number
Now verified
My folks had three
And I was the last of them
Same for my wife
And I can confirm
That we are two of the most difficult people
You’ll ever meet
Aside from my mom
Who was the first of two
And was the pinnacle
Of difficulty
She recently walked off into the sunset
I said my goodbyes
Through salty tears
She told me to get off her cloud
So with my feet planted back on the ground
Beside the mother and father
Of a small nation beside me
And a setting sun before me
I don’t remember
If there was a green flash or not
But I knew that my three kids at home
And these three beers on the edge of this cliff
It was enough for me